Así que por fin he terminado mis deberes de Sociales xD. Me ha llevado demasiado, la verdad… pero ahora ya está hecho.
Es el diario de un hombre, llamado Don Antonio Guillermo de Monteverde (Sir Anthony William of Monteverde en Inglés). Cuenta su vida día a día, en especial sus pensamientos contra la sociedad en la que vive, reflejados en cada una de sus palabras. La frase que he escrito de título, “Let the light be light, and so the dark will remain dark” se la dice uno de sus amigos, el señor Diego (Sir James), queriendo decir que se deje llevar, que se crea que lo que ellos piensan es lo que está bien (los demás insisten en esto) y que lo que creen que está mal es lo que está mal. Le está diciendo que no trate de buscarle una explicación porque descubrirá o bien que no la hay, o bien algo completamente distinto (y por eso mismo problemático):
Dear diary,
This is Sir Anthony William of Monteverde, writing upon hopes of a new society that is certainly not coming. Although it has been a long, exhausting day, my body feels as young as a freshly-cut rose. My mind flies like a butterfly with the biggest wings of freedom ever painted by mankind. It is early winter here, with no snow but cold wind coming from the majestic Pyrenees. Their tops look innocent and peaceful, covered with a blanket of soft white, running all across the horizon from the Atlantic Ocean to the Mediterranean Sea. As you can tell, it is the perfect season for long, deep thinking and political discussions, while having a cup of good (which will certainly be required as Spanish) red wine with some well-trusted friends.
The elections began and are now over; Sir Peter of Toledo has been chosen as our new representative. I feel like crying and laughing at the same time. Though my face shows no expression, my mind is already excited by the mere thought of a new meeting. Memories fill in, blind my sight and push my chest so hard that my breathing becomes heavy. It is time.
Just after Sir Peter has finished his speech, I start walking, calmly to catch my breath, away from the big square, away from the sweaty people and noisy children; away from their own bubble, where the uncontrolled freedom of their society could sent them right into me, a complete stranger (and yet full of knowledge) of their thinking and behaving. I run to my secret, wonderful place, across the square and passed the powerful (which seems as wise and forgotten as any old lady) basilica. Certainly, this owes to be one of the best pubs, yet not too popular (because every gentleman knows how much erosion can be created by too much knowledge), of the entire city of Zaragoza.
“As punctual as a clock, and thus as usual. Greetings, Sir Anthony, and have a wonderful day.” says the doorman, a big man with incredible grey eyes and an expensive, black coat.
“My pleasure, Mister.” I give him my hat and walk in. There is the typical dark greenish cloud of smoke and its bitter smell that crush right into my face, and a low murmur made up by voices of the men talking all at the same time. It feels like coming back home after a long, boring journey. At the very back of the room there is a group of four men, arguing in rough, deep voices. They have some strange, white powder instead of the usual cigars. I come closer to them, gently shake their hands and take a seat.
“Good evening, Sir Anthony. Nice of you to come here to discuss with us just after Sir Peter has been elected.” exclaims Sir John in his calm, accusative voice.
“And as opportune. Seasons come and go away; so do men. I was hoping our October meeting was not to be your last one.” agrees Sir Paul, his eyes staring right at the powder, shining with excitement, though his words were directed to me.
“It is to be said, though, we are running out of time. Please take your portion of the Queen’s Habit so that the meeting can start, Sir Anthony.” asks Sir Michael in his authoritarian tone, typical of an old Spain representative. He hands me some of the powder, which seems to be called Queen’s Habit. It looks harmful and yet desirable, the white colour looking so innocent that no one could even resists its powerful call. I take some with the tip of my finger and lick it slowly, enjoying it just like a kid with his first birthday present. The taste is shocking, delightful but bitter, making my desire grow like a monster and sending a shiver all over my spinal cord.
“Wonderfully pure, this is, Queen’s Habit. Exported from Asia and all the way from Russia to Madrid and sent across the country to this same pub.” informs Sir James, a gentleman that is used to being as quite as a statue, only talking when scientific facts are required. His voice is soft and high-pitched like a woman’s.
“Certainly, Sir James.” I answer, my voice trembling with excitement. “How much did you say we have?”
Sir Paul’s laugh is sharp and rough as his own voice. It is also short, as a wave of coughing makes him interrupt himself. Finally, he recovers. “Just you wish, Sir Anthony. I’m sorry to say, though, we have no more that those your eyes can see.”
“Find yourself lucky, Sir Anthony, as you are to enjoy this privilege only seen among liberalist, wealthy men.” replies Sir James, his face looking paler than normal. “I belief, and my hope is every other gentlemen worth his salt will agree with me, our main aim in this life is to find happiness whatever the way.”
“Not to mention the help of our free trade market, lacking any interruption of the once way too powerful State.” agrees Sir John. He calls the waiter and asks him, in a gentle, cordial tone; “May we have some Spanish wine?”
“Excuse my interruption, Sir John, but you keep on forgetting that this same State you seem to hate so much used to help the Spanish people as much as it could. They gave us education (although basic, it is to be said) and increased our culture. They even offered economic help to make the habitants wealthier and broke the internal barriers to make the trade easier.” I argue, knowing this is the start. The biggest fire only needs a tiny spark to burn.
“¡Oh, please!” exclaims Sir Michael, looking concerned. “Not to mention, of course, that this same State you seem to love so much” I notice how my own words are now used against me. “had no power over their absolutistic monarch. You ought to know, Sir Anthony, that if not due to the Enlightenment, things would have continued to be as bad as they used to. Actually, it is to be said that even the Nobles and the Feudal opposed to this changes.” informs Sir Michael.
“These facts are certainly worth your past as representative, Sir Michael.” agrees Sir James in his cold, matter-of-fact voice. “It is true, any way, that things are now right because of how they used to be wrong.” facing Sir John’s inquisitive smile, the man continues his speech. “Let me explain myself, my trustful friends; if it hadn’t been because of our weak economy during the absolutism, two centuries ago, we wouldn’t have this priceless treasure right now.” he points the powder, which had been completely forgotten. “It is known that poor King Philip the Second had to declare bankruptcy three times during his reign. Just a while ago, the State figured out, thanks to their newly influenced enlightenment believes, how much they needed their farmers (and any other Spanish worker) to be as wealthy as they expected their economy to be.” His explanations are interrupted by the arriving of five small glasses of the best red wine in the whole country. It tastes of mountain flowers, berries and bitter nuts. Delicious.
“May I ask, Sir James, if you excuse my wonder, how is it possible that it took so long for this idea to arise? I wonder, my friends, if this world isn’t truly broken. Is there really a God looking after us, as any religion assures, or are we alone in this hell?” I ask, my voice trembling with sudden sadness. I can sense the rose fading and the petals starting to fall, slowly yet unstoppable. Just like my own life.
“You shall not call it a hell, Sir Anthony, as this shows how much of your aim it is left for you to carry out. I don’t believe in any divine right-“
“I’m not talking about the divine right the absolutistic monarchs thought they had.” I interrupt Sir Paul’s argument, annoyed by their stubbornness. “I’m not wondering why they demolished the Parliaments’ influence in political endeavours, either if the monarchs represented both God and the Earth. I’m not asking why their power was so complete, not even restricted by any law nor institution. I’m just-“ I take a deep breath and drink some of my wine to clear my throat. “I’m just trying to understand why they thought like this. Why they didn’t belief what we do. I wonder…”
“Just too much things you wonder, my friend.” says Sir James. “Let the light be light, and so the dark will remain dark.”
Sir James’ weird phrase annoys me to the point that I stand up and leave the pub. The other men don’t even bother following me; they know I’ll come back some other day. They known I’m completely against their thinking, but of course they don’t even care. “As long as you are happy…” they say, “Why should we care?”
I get back home as quickly as I can, avoiding contact with any other gentleman. It is almost midnight now; times flies as fast as a hare. The streets are empty and dirty, the squares lonely and peaceful. The rose has finally died; surrounded by brownish petals and yellow leaves, the stem bents and falls as my body rests in the soft bed. I fall asleep almost immediately.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I will get to work as usual; count the money and give each costumer their little piece. I will bless my boss and pray for my friends’ extreme happiness; I will kiss my free wife and drive my sweet children to school; I will think about how lucky I am to live in a liberalism world, so different from the hateful despotism and absolutism, and so I will tell each person I see in my way back home; I will help my children with their homework and teach them how to behave; I will have the best dinner ever done by a wife with my whole family, laughing and talking non-sense; and finally, staring at the light white walls of my quiet, private chamber, I will read my favourite book until the tiredness of a long, hard-working day closes my eyes and drives me into the lovely world of free dreams.
This is, Sir Anthony William of Monteverde.